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If your absence doesn't affect them, your presence never mattered.This was an adjustment week for me. I’m coming off vacation, and things just didn’t get done.

It’s funny; they say vacations are relaxing, but I always feel worse when they’re over.

This particular vacation wasn’t downtime at a beach or lake. It was a trip home. We celebrated my daughter’s high school graduation with our extended family, because no loved ones live near us.

Going home was wonderful because I got to meet the twins (niece/nephew) and my great-nephew. I also got to see two of the other family toddlers I’ve only seen once or twice, and I got to spend time with my 99-year-old grandmother, whom I adore and cherish. And, of course, I got to visit all our other family members, too.

But getting the party planned and pulled off was a feat, especially long-distance for most of it. And the last minute scramble to find a hall instead of having it at the pool kind of sucked, although it worked out just fine. (Thank you, one day of rain at the worst possible time.)

Combine that stress with all the demands on our time and the 1,000-mile drive there and back, and I’m sure you can understand why this particular vacation wasn’t restful.

The quote I chose this week isn’t necessarily author-exclusive, although it can apply to the writer/reader relationship. It is, however, precisely how I’m feeling.

  • Did the blogosphere and social media even notice I was gone?
  • Did anyone in town miss me in my absence?
  • Does my family care that we’ve left again? If they do, is it because they miss us, or is it because our staying there was a strain on their comfortable routines?
  • Does my absence from loved ones bother them as much as it bothers me?

I am struggling with feelings of inadequacy and unwantedness, which seems to be the norm when I go home. Everything gets out of whack, my schedule gets shot. It’s difficult to get back into my routine. And I’m physically and emotionally drained for a while. I have mountains of laundry to do, I just managed to get to the grocery store yesterday (and spent far too much money there), and I’m woefully behind on everything.

Vacations are not restful for me.

But… things are normalizing. I expect to be back to my regular posting schedule tomorrow. I don’t know when, if ever, I’ll manage to catch up. But you’ll be the first to know when I do.

Now, on to other news.

The organized links of the week.

Short Fiction/WP DP Challenge Links:

Sorry. I was away and none of these happened.

Links to Posts on Sites I’m Affiliated With:

Thanks for stopping by. I hope you find these links entertaining and/or useful. I promise, next week will be back to business as usual.

In the meantime, before you go, feel free to weigh in on any of this content down below.

Enjoy your weekend!